Today I woke up thinking how I have spent my whole life waiting for something that isn't going to happen
Maybe I can come to terms with this fact.
Once and for all.
I got up
Changed my sheets
Threw them along with my old pijamas in the washing machine
I stepped in the shower
Let the water run until it was warm enough
As I was washing my hair
It happened
I begun feeling increasingly seasick
"Hmmm... Maybe I 'll need to make myself some breakfast" , I thought to myself
But it started getting worse and worse
Progressively
I knew this was very wrong
I decided to quickly get out of the shower,with soap and water running from my fully saturated hair
Wet as a lake made of tears
I stepped outside of the shower
I quickly reached for the towel to wrap around my body to not feel cold
There was a real urgency
I sat on the bathroom floor
I was semi concious
For a moment I flew into a dream
It felt as if I was actually dreaming
I had drifted away
I realized this is not good
And snapped out of it
I dragged myself to my bedroom
All wet and soapy
And somehow managed to climb on my bed
I am now lying on it upside down
Looking at the ceiling
Listening to the silence with my buzzing ears
With elevated feet
Breathing in and exhaling
The bullshit of my life
Such bullshit!!! Oh my God!!!
Thinking that I should just let go of the people who wouldn't even give a rip if I saw another day or not.
Those who wouldn't even care if I took my next breath or not
In moments like these
Waiting for who...
Waiting for what...
What?
No.
We are not waiting anymore.
I am not waiting anymore.
I am here, now.
That is all.
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