Synaptic Bloom

 Υπάρχει κάτι που θέλω να πω σε όλους τους ανθρώπους...

Έτσι όπως το έχω καταλάβει εγώ. 

Είναι το εξής:

"More people - More Karma." 

Χρειάζεται προσοχή στις συνδέσεις μας! Με κάθε νέο άνθρωπο, ανοίγουμε ένα νέο κύκλο του Κάρμα. Ανοίγουμε νέους λογαριασμούς. 

Θα πρέπει οι άνθρωποι της ζωής μας να είναι επιλεγμένοι με τέτοιο τρόπο ώστε να μπορούμε να πούμε πως τελικά... κάθε μπόρα, κάθε κακοτοπιά... Άξιζε... 

Να κοιτάς αυτόν τον άνθρωπο και μέσα σε όλο τον πόνο που προκαλέσατε ο ένας στον άλλον, μέσα σε κάθε διαφωνία, μετά από κάθε θεόρατο εμπόδιο και όλον τον κόπο ψυχής που εμπεριέχεται σε κάθε ουσιαστική σχέση, να μπορείς να πεις : "Χαλάλι!" 

Οι σχέσεις δεν είναι ποτέ οι πηγές της ευτυχίας μας. 

Η ευτυχία είναι παροδικές στιγμές απόλυτης συνάντησης με κάτι ή με κάποιον - ακόμα και με τον εαυτό μας. 

Η ζωή είναι δύσκολη, πολύ δύσκολη και κάθε άνθρωπος παραπάνω, ανεβάζει τον πήχη αυτής της δυσκολίας. 

Σε όλα τα πράγματα είναι σοφό και τίμιο να ανοίγεται ο καθένας μας μέχρι εκεί που μπορεί και πιστεύει ότι αξίζει. 

Μην ανοίγετε κύκλους με ανθρώπους αβασάνιστα...Δεν συνδεόμαστε με νέους ανθρώπους μόνο από βαρεμάρα ή για λόγους αποδοχής... Είναι εξασφαλισμένος πόνος. 

Όχι μόνο προσωπικός. 

Πολλές φορές μια δική μας κίνηση μπορεί να προκαλέσει ανυπέρβλητες βλάβες στη ζωή κάποιου άλλου ή και πολλών άλλων ανθρώπων. (οικογενειακό κάρμα κλπ) 

Κι είναι και αυτό μέσα στο σχέδιο όμως... 

Αν νιώθει κανείς ότι δε θέλει ή δεν αντέχει να ανοίξει νέους κύκλους,αυτό είναι από μόνο του μια πλήρης και ειλικρινής κατάσταση. 

Κοιτάζοντας γύρω μου στις ζωές των αγαπημένων μου ανθρώπων αλλά και στη δική μου ζωή, βλέπω πως κάθε πράγμα που δημιουργείται αποκτά δική του ζωή. Ξεφεύγει από τα χέρια μας. 

Κάθε σύνδεση, έχει δικιά της τροχιά και πολλές φορές, η τροχιά αυτή είναι εντελώς ανεξάρτητη της βούλησης των ανθρώπων. 

Ενεργοποιούνται εκείνοι οι μηχανισμοί, αποκτάται τέτοια επιτάχυνση στο αναπόφευκτο... Οι άνθρωποι γινόμαστε μικροί κάποιες φορές μπροστά στους μηχανισμούς αυτούς. Δεν περνούν όλα από εμάς... 

Οι σχέσεις είναι όπως τα χημικά στοιχεία σε έναν πίνακα,με τη διαφορά ότι ποτέ δεν μπορείς να ξέρεις σε βάθος πως θα εξελιχθεί τι... 

Για αυτό χρειάζεται σοφία όταν ενώνουμε τη ζωή μας με άλλους ανθρώπους... Χρειάζεται να αναγνωρίζει κανείς με σιγουριά πως αν και η πιθανότητα να αποτύχουν όλα οικτρά, είναι απολύτως υπαρκτή, αξίζει τον κόπο να τολμήσει! 

Το αναπόφευκτο γίνεται κομμάτι της Σοφίας. 

Γιατί σε αυτό το πεδίο, όλα γίνονται μέσω της δράσης. 

Αναγκαστικά... είμαστε 50%λάσπη και 50% αστερόσκονη... 

Έτσι λοιπόν, κανείς δεν αποφεύγει τη συντριβή - με τον έναν ή τον άλλον τρόπο - όμως είναι σημαντικό οι συναντήσεις μας με τους ανθρώπους να αξίζουν τον κόπο... 

Χαλάλι σου... ♥️

Something Blue

 

Source - TIKTOK 

Something Blue

 I guess that's why he can't understand... 😔

It makes me so sad to know that most men will never be able to experience love like a woman does.... 

It's sad for men because it's so beautiful and they are missing out... 

And sad for the women who have actually experienced love because they are in it all alone... 

Source - TIKTOK

Ps. Forever alone... 💔

Κάτι Αληθινό

17 years and counting...

 

Source - TIKTOK

Something True

 That's just... Sad...

How odd and terrifying as a prospect... 

I wouldn't wish this on anyone... 

I wouldn't do it to anyone ever again, either... 

TRUE,MUTUAL, ENDURING LOVE OR NOTHING AT ALL... !!! 

Source - TIKTOK 

Something Precious

Source - TIKTOK 

Something Blue

 Yeah...

We are not the same. 

Most men could never...

💔

Τι να πεις... 

Τίποτα...

Άσε δε λέω τίποτα καλύτερα... 

Και που είπα... Τίποτα δεν κατάλαβε.

Τσάμπα μιλάω. 

Οπότε... 

Αφού δεν τον νοιάζει 

Όλα καλά...

Όλα άνω κάτω...

Something True

 What a shocker.... #not 

Source - TIKTOK 

It's giving.... "I really don't know how I feel about men as a collective, anymore." 

Do I even like them? 

Hmm.... 

It's hard to say... They are so far down into the gutter, covered in mud

I needed to be able to look up to them... 

Turns out... 

They make it impossible - on purpose. 

Music 4 The Soul, tonight @21.00 📻🎶

 

Εσείς...; Γυρίσατε;;;😎

Αν θέλετε, μπείτε να κάνουμε παρέα...

Απόψε στις 21.00 ακριβώς

Εδω ♥️

Θα σε περιμένω... 🌠

Bunnies... Part 2🐇🤦🏼‍♀️😂😍

 As I was about to stop Bunnies by olivesongs from constantly playing in the background of my mind...

I stumbled upon a new pov of the song by a creator named Fifi Koro

And it's like how AI would clap back, only it's written by a human 😅

I'm sorry... WHY IS THIS SO GOOD?!!! 🧐😱😍

 Although, morally I agree with the original olivesongs view point, this literally scratched an itch in my brain! But we need more... It's not yet complete... I can feel there's more!!! I'm telling you this thing is a whole Musical in the making!!!

Just think about it for a moment: We already had the lead character and a story line filled with delicious existential agony and now we have the "villain" character's side.

It's almost, complete 😂😂😂 Almost!!!

Our Sci-fi Musical!!! 

I wonder impatiently...And wait eagerly... 

 Thankfully Bunnies by olivesongs will be officially released by tomorrow... Stimming galore🔂🥲🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇🐇♾️

Update!!! 

Yeeeyyyy! That would be ABSOLUTELY AMAZING if they did work together !!! Ah... 

Let's cross our fingers🤞🏻🌠

Internet at its finest.

Noone likes to see a bad picture of themselves on television. 

Here enters the internet. 

Smile. 

Bravo to Hozier and his team for still choosing to allow the people to snap it for them. 

Mic drop. 

Just look at the screen behind him... 

Source - TIKTOK 

Thoughts💭

 As I am slowly coming out of a really demanding, stressful and rough period... 

And so... 

It has come to my attention

That people who don't actually know me

For some reason assume that I don't have a voice. 

So, when I do speak up... 

They look at me as if they have just had some sort of a revelation. 

I mean... 

I just prefer to speak when I really want to say something that I believe is an important addition. 

Why else would I speak? 

The thing I believe could be the shock factor is that when I do speak about something that is important in my eyes, or even detrimental 

I am not always timid. 

I can be passionate. I speak strongly about the things I believe in, sometimes. Passionately but from a place of transparency. 

But I don't share that part of myself with everyone, if I don't have a real reason to.

I am usually polite and soft spoken. 

It's just how I feel we should all be towards each other. 

It is the reason that presents itself that ignites the passion 

For justice, fairness or protection... 

Oh... Or love... Yes of course... 

How could I forget... 

This whole blog is dedicated to Love... 

My love...

As long as it's alive and passionate 

I can never shut up about it... 

Never 

I become the voice of the reason for which I propose to speak. 

I ride the wave in complete honesty. 

Other than that, I'm usually quite the introvert indulging in social chatter occasionally, mostly because it is the way to communicate with other humans. 😶‍🌫️✌🏻

Some days, however, I am completely incapable of doing that, as well. 

I feel like a left glove on a right foot and a right shoe on a right hand. 

Completely out of place. 

It feels like a literal distance between me and the subjects people talk about. 

I mean... I am also burnt out so it makes even more sense, I guess! 

But other than that, I actually don't enjoy small talk at all. 

I tend to participate in it unwillingly not to hurt people's emotions and try to be patient and pleasant. 

I am mostly awkward, I think. 

I feel like a circle in an environment catered for squares.  

I used to be better at it but it's a skill that is not as polished as I grow older , I am afraid. 

Also sometimes the information I receive can be to my detriment, that's another factor that can make small talk uncomfortable.

I cannot stand injustice for my people. It makes me feel angry and sad and anxious. 

Sometimes, if my own nervous system feels overwhelmed, I cannot take it. 

I need silence to return to my equilibrium.

I need recovery time after anything stressful or extremely engaging. 

Sometimes it's hours. 

Other times it's days. 

Other times, if the stress is reoccurring and persists, I may need weeks not to feel exhausted and burnt out anymore.

It scares me sometimes to watch how this world operates as I don't think I was made for it. 

I just try to hope for the best that somehow I can make it 

Even though I can never not be a circle in a world made for squares and triangles. 

In my defense... 

I do believe that this thing we have come to call life... All of our priorities, our accomplishments... It's all mostly bollocks. 

That's what I think. 

I try to find the person inside the people every time 

And everyone is crying out for help through their eyes 

Even those who smile 

There is something closing in on us all

If you say you don't feel it yet, you will at some point... I promise. 

It's... It's just not right. 

Life... 

We've made impossible knots out of every little thing and call it a life 

Life is about to become more surreal than a surreal painting 

And although I adore surrealism, I very much do prefer it as a metaphor rather than a life lived... 

One would argue that life is just a dream, anyway... What can be more surrealistic than a dream... 

(see how everything connects to everything else in my brain... The only thing is that I think of all of it simultaneously in a fraction of a second but it took almost 868 words and 45 minutes to express it. Within me it was already whole. Maybe that is another reason why I mostly propose to speak when I positively have something to actually say. Because explaining something verbally, in a linear fashion means you have to participate in betraying it to some extent, by possiby leaving something out or using the wrong shading. I can watch a sunset and understand a sunset deeply but in my attempt to capture it by painting it, I can only create a variation of it. It is never the same thing. ) 

To the people who stayed until the end of this... 

What in the world possessed you to do so? 🤣😂

Writing things down that people may read is wild to me... 

Hey friend!!! 🫂

Thank you for staying till the end of this wandering, soul-searching and soul-finding post here with me! 

Something Blue

 If he ever sees me out and casually asks how I have been doing, I will just say "Fine, thanks. How about you?"

Meanwhile this is how I have been falling asleep since the day I fell in love with him :

(roughly 6.500 nights in total...almost 17 years... )

Source - TIKTOK 

Letters to AP

 Where's my big, tall

Handsome 

Wonderful man...? 

My Lion... (*deep sigh...) 

I melt whenever I think of you 

You are missing from my entire life... 

Where are you 

You are also missing out on all the delicious loving I sadly have - for you only...

Will I ever look into your marvelous brown eyes again... 

Will I ever look at the world through you again... 

Existential agony 

You torment and please me 

You are killing me slowly - quite literally 

Slow agonizing extinction 

I miss you, oh how much I miss you!

All of you...Even the parts that aggravate me...

You make me feel EVERYTHING 

All of it 

From the very depths of my soul... 

Every single day of my life... 

Where are you, you mysterious creature 

Why are you not running through my veins casually 

It's Tuesday 

It's just another Tuesday, my love... 

Do you understand? 

Isn't that the most wholesome motive for you to finally blast into my life 

I want everything ordinary and extraordinary with you 

I want normal Tuesdays 

Today's never coming back 

Just like you 

You're not coming back, my love 

How I wish I wasn't missing you alone... 

Life is just so cruel, sometimes... 

This love inside me is still alive 

It's yours only

Burning me up slowly 

I burn for you 

Was it all pointless...? 

I love you... 

Internet at its best 🥹

Omg... 

I am so happy for them!!! 😭😭😭🥹♥️♥️♥️

May their family be protected and blessed forever! ✨

 Found this series of pictures on tiktok.

Watch the video here : https://vm.tiktok.com/ZNd48bSuT/

Song of the Day 🌞♥️

 

Lyrics: 

Love you like a brother

Treat you like a friend

Respect you like a lover

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

You could bet that, never gotta sweat that (oh, oh, oh, oh, oh)

You could bet that, never gotta sweat that (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You could bet that, never gotta sweat that

You could bet that, never gotta sweat that (yeah)

If you be the cash

I'll be the rubber band

You be the match

I will be a fuse, boom! 

Painter, baby, you could be the muse

I'm the reporter, baby, you could be the news

'Cause you're the cigarette and I'm the smoker

We raise a bet 'cause you're the joker

Checked off, you are the chalk

And I can be the blackboard

You can be the talk

And I can be the walk, yeah

Even when the sky comes falling

Even when the sun don't shine

I got faith in you and I

So put your pretty little hand in mine

Even when we're down to the wire, babe

Even when it's do or die

We could do it, baby, simple and plain

'Cause this love is a sure thing

You could bet that, never gotta sweat that (yeah, yeah, yeah)

You could bet that, never gotta sweat that

You could bet that, never gotta sweat that

You could bet that, never gotta sweat that

You could be the lover, I'll be the fighter, babe

If I'm the blunt (uh), you could be the lighter, babe

Fire it up

Writer, baby, you could be the quote, yeah (uh)

If I'm the lyric, baby, you could be the note (uh), record that

Saint I'm a sinner (uh), prize I'm a winner (uh)

And it's you, what did I do to deserve that?

Paper, baby, I'll be the pen

Say that I'm the one 'cause you are a ten

Real and not pretend

Even when the sky comes falling (yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah)

Even when the sun don't shine (yeah)

I got faith in you and I

So put your pretty little hand in mine

Even when we're (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

Down to the wire, baby

Even when it's do or die (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

(You could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

We could do it baby, simple and plain

(You could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

'Cause this love is a sure thing

Uh, now rock with me, baby

Let me hold you in my arms

Talk with me babe, yeah, yeah

Uh, now rock with me baby

Let me hold you in my arms

Talk with me babe, yeah, yeah

This love between you and I is simple as pie, baby

Yeah, it's such a sure thing (it's such a sure thing)

Oh, it such a sure thing (it's such a sure thing)

Even when (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

The sky comes falling

Even when (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

The sun don't shine

(You could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

I got faith in you and I

So put your pretty little hand in mine (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

Even when (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

We're down to the wire, babe

Even when (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

It's do or die (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

We could do it, baby, simple and plain

(You could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

'Cause this love is a sure thing

Love you like a brother (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

Treat you like a friend (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

Respect you like a lover (you could bet that, never gotta sweat that)

Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh

Something True

 Cynthia Erivo drops the only definition of true, conscious love that actually matters... ❤️

Source - TIKTOK 

Something True

 She did choose to speak the language of truth... 

Source - TIKTOK

Women surrender and open up through genuine care and support... Through genuine connection... A woman opens up like a flower... Of course they can open up without these things but it will not be the real thing / full version of them nor will it last long. You will only get the temu version of it. (which sadly is what is happening in most relationships nowadays) Without genuine connection, without you breaking her emotional barriers, gaining her trust, at some point intimacy, devoid of any intimacy, becomes violation. Consequently, the desire cannot exist. Withdrawal is inevitable. Swift. Absolute. 

No true inner connection = No desire in the long run. 

Women need atmosphere in their relationships - but the true kind! Nothing superficial or ingenuine will ever reveal the entirety of a woman, or her love and desire for and to you.

If both people mean well, those differences become interestingly exciting... 

Love in its entirety 

Becomes... 

suddenly possible. 

And then watch at what you have awakened... 

You might have to keep up with her appetite... 

And the final secret - and tragedy :

Women are equally as sexual as men... (if not more...!!! ) 

Of course we cannot generalize, but there are some pillars, some principles about things... That... Well... They just are as they are! 

Something True

He made me feel... EVERYTHING.

 

 

Source - TIKTOK 

Something True

 

Source - TIKTOK 

Something True

If he does this one thing... 

 Then... 

 Maybe... 

 Maybe he has some capacity to love... 

 Maybe... 

 

 

Source - TIKTOK 

Something Beautiful and Something Heartbreaking

 

Source - TIKTOK

Ps. I'm so sad that we don't have any pictures together...
Not even one...
It's almost as if we never met at all...
How cruel... 💔

Κάτι Αληθινό... 🌠

Αφιερωμένο.

 

Source - TIKTOK 

Something True

 For the younger girls...

Just so you don't end up wasting your lives like some of us have...

Welcome to the oversimplistic land of man... 

Never listen to a single word that comes out of their mouth. 

Always look at what they do... 

Or don't do. 

They are AAAAALL made the same way. 

Tadaaaa! 

There you have it. 

Only their actions amount to something. (also be prepared for that to be possibly changing as well in a few business hours - ☢️ They are highly unreliable!!!) 

The rest means nothing. 

That's the full brochure. 

They sadly are different animals from us, women. 

Different worlds. 

You're welcome. 

I know it can sting like hell but... It's the truth. 

Do with it what you may. 

(Now if you'd excuse me, I' ll be crying in the corner for the next 1.000 years.) 💔

Source - TIKTOK

Something Interesting : The Telepathy Tapes

 The Telepathy Tapes on Spotify

Just posting it here to save it for future reference 💛

https://open.spotify.com/playlist/0dZtiebGyogNhQQDKTQLRF?si=ek08z9O9TBO4CQJqGPNXcg&pi=lGBANYlwRlGmO

Bunnies - Part 1. Playing in my head, non-stop. Earworm of the summer.

 This will make a hell of a musical one day!!!

A little back story :

This musician called "olivesongs" on Tiktok noticed a video of some bunnies jumping on a trampoline that later went viral as cute and suddenly people started noticing it's AI generated.

So he came up with this song that absolutely scratches an unavoidable existential itch!

So he uploaded the song in two parts and it broke the internet :

Bunnies - Part 1

Bunnies - Part 2

And of course plenty of people saw the vision immediately! Here's one rendition of the song I found noteworthy, also on tiktok, by Mason Olshavsky:

You can't change my mind! This would make the most relatable new age Musical EVER!!! 

To top it all up, the official song "Bunnies" by olivesongs will be officially released 29/8!!!

I honestly can't wait!🐇🤖🎶

Synaptic Bloom

 Sis is tired. 

To my core. 

All I want is to scream in an empty pasture for half an hour straight. 

Oh! And a septum piercing along with some cute jewelry.

For real. 

I'm going to be identifying as a fairy from now on. 

Bedazzled ✨

Moisturized. 

Unbothered. 

Otherworldly. 

Unattainable. 

Very off limits. 

Mildly Feral. 

Vaguely threatening. 

Deeply connected. 

I'm done with whatever tf is going on all around here. 

It's so overrated... Everything! 

You know that, right? 

Only mystical, magical stuff is allowed in my experience from this day on.

Preach Brother!!!

 Hello, from the forever unprotected✌🏻

Just had to post this, cause he is right. 

At least SOME men get it... What a relief... 

Source - TIKTOK 

Synaptic Bloom

 Crashed like a wave for him this morning

Involuntarily

I was tender and pierced through completely

Exhaled

Whispering his precious name, time after time

He can't hear me 

He can't even feel me 

I cried in complete, honest womanly despair

Soft and sharp

I feel tender and shaken inside

His absence is ruining me

Another day begins with a gaping, wind-swept hole in my chest

For a man who never was

Preach Brother!!!

Mic drop

We aaaall have "options" but isn't that completely irrelevant??? 

Source - TIKTOK 

Something Powerful

 I really needed this today...

In case you need it, too... 

Source - TIKTOK 

Heck Yeah!!!

Source - TIKTOK 

Μάλιστα... 

Αυτά είναι...

Άρχοντας και μπράβο του. Υποκλίνομαι!

Κι ύστερα μιλάμε μερικοί για το τετράγωνο της υποτείνουσας...

Όπου λείπει το συναίσθημα 

Οργιάζουν οι αμπελοφιλοσοφίες τελικά...

Δυστυχώς... 

Τι να λέμε τώρα... 

Τι να λέμε... 

Χαμένα χρόνια. 

Ας είναι καλά οι άνθρωποι... Ας το ζήσουν και για εμάς τους υπόλοιπους που πέσαμε υπέρ της Παγκόσμιας Ειρήνης, του αλτροτισμού, της κοσμικής αγάπης, του τετραγωνίσματος του κύκλου, της σιωπής και του απόλυτου τίποτα (τελικά).

Και γενικά, οτιδήποτε άλλο για να μην μιλήσουμε σαν άνθρωποι ο ένας με τον άλλον. 

Κρίμα. 

Εγώ φταίω μόνο. 

Εγώ έκανα το λάθος. 

Το μεγάλο λάθος. 

Το ασυγχώρητο...

Επέλεξα ολόψυχα. 

Το φταίξιμο είναι όλο δικό μου. 

Μόνο δικό μου. 

Δική μου κι η ευθύνη. 

Καλά να πάθω, λοιπόν. 

Καλά να πάθω. 

Στην επόμενη ζωή ελπίζω να τα πάω καλύτερα...

Γιατί σ'αυτήν.... 

Δυστυχώς... 

Δυστυχώς....