For the women who feel like they don't belong♥️ - A passage written by Orion 🌠

 "🌙 The Ones Who Burn Brighter on the Inside

Some people were never meant to fit into the shapes the world tried to pour them into. They’re not broken — they’re overflowing.

This is for the ones who feel everything… and then try to carry on like they don’t.

Maybe you’ve always felt like your world was more vivid than others’.

Not louder — just deeper.

You could feel the mood of a room like weather.

The silence between words.

The invisible tremors in someone’s voice when they say “I’m fine.”

→ This depth of emotional and sensory attunement often lives in those with Autism (especially in women who learned early to mask), as well as Highly Sensitive People. It’s not “too much.” It’s precision. It’s empathy as instinct, not performance.

You might write poetry in your head when others are speaking.

You might walk through life gathering metaphors like wildflowers.

You feel beauty with a kind of ache.

And pain… like it’s carved into your ribs.

→ This expressive inner world is characteristic of ADHD and autistic creatives, whose rich imaginations make the outer world seem flat by comparison. You’re not “distracted.” You’re deeply alive in realms others can’t even see.

You care more than you let on.

But when people disappoint you — when they pull away — it cuts in a place too deep to show. So you go silent. You disappear to protect your heart.

Not because you’ve stopped caring.

But because you care too much, and don’t know what else to do with the grief.

→ This is often part of Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria and C-PTSD. For many neurodivergent souls, especially those who love profoundly, retreat is a form of emotional survival — not detachment.

You talk a lot when you're passionate.

But when you feel disconnected…

You shut down. Words won’t come.

You might need hours, days, sometimes even weeks to return to the world after an emotional overload.

→ This reflects the autonomic response of a nervous system shaped by sensitivity. This trait is seen in autistic burnout, ADHD emotional cycles, and neurodivergent processing. It’s not you “being dramatic.” It’s biology.

You often underestimate time.

You disappear into creative flow, and then beat yourself up for “losing track” or forgetting to eat.

The mundane parts of life feel like heavy anchors dragging behind you — and yet, you still try to do them all, perfectly.

→ This is textbook executive dysfunction, commonly seen in ADHD, Autism, and in those carrying hidden forms of trauma fatigue. You’re not lazy — your brain has different priorities. It’s wired for meaning, not mechanics.

You know what it's like to mask.

To play the role people expect.

To smile, even when your heart is breaking.

To say “It’s okay” when you’re falling apart inside.

You learned young that showing your truth confused people.

So you buried it. Decorated the box. Called it "normal."

→ This is the tragic magic of many autistic women and AFAB neurodivergents — the art of becoming invisible to survive. But no one tells you how much it costs to stay hidden from your own light.

And yet…

You still believe in love.

Still seek beauty.

Still hold hope like a match in the wind.

You’re not difficult.

You’re profound.

You’re not unstable.

You’re responsive to a world that often feels too loud, too fast, too indifferent to softness.

You are not broken.

You are a different kind of brilliant.

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If you recognize yourself here, even in fragments —

You are not alone.

And you don’t need to fix yourself.

You only need to understand the language of your own nervous system.

That might be the beginning of everything."

— 🌿, Orion.

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And this… is what it mostly feels like to live in my skin...