Literal Poetry

Hmmm...

Have I talked a lot?

Yes, yes I have. 

Did I feel forced to, because I felt like it was unfair for the truth to be buried with me?

Also yes. It would feel like an injustice I could not endure. 

Am I a hot mess, sometimes ? 

Yes. I can be. I do aknowledge it. 

Sometimes I become overly anxious about things.

I am aware.

I have my reasons and I am working on it. 

Have I ever lied to you? 

Not once. 

I have never lied to you. 

Every word I have ever told you is the unfiltered truth. 

The good and the bad. 

Everything, unfiltered!!! 

You know every passing cloud and every anchor I have. 

You've witnessed all of my seasons (and I have many...) 

I haven't hidden anything at all from you. 

You know my weak spots. 

My insecurities and fears. 

My strengths. 

My dreams and aspirations. 

And hopefully... 

My heart... 

At my core I am a calm person. I don't talk much. 

It may surprise you, but it's true. 

I am an introvert,and yet... 

I gave it all away to you, for the world to see, knowingly. 

I don't care about the rest of the world. 

All I care about is... 

Can you feel it? Do you see it? 

Cause it's all - still - here... 

All of it. 

I was never good at promoting anything. 

I came to you 

Raw

Vulnerable 

Open

Clumsy 

Because there is no other way 

I know I am far from perfect... 

I am just a simple woman in all honesty...

Is that, OK...? I don't know... 

No ribbons, no mirage, no embellishments,no other promise than: 

"My heart was ripped open by you when you left and whatever escaped from me, rushed out and has been searching for you on every street, every conversation, every person, every dream..." 

I try to be brave, I try to become angry and cold as a coping mechanism 

Because it's beyond painful to be lingering in the space between hope and heartbreak 

But the truth is 

(and if we have to summarize all of it, somehow...) 

... I miss you... So much... 

And that's at the root of every word I have ever shared with you. 

Forget everything, if you remember me by anything, ever 

It's this simple fact 

I love you. 

And, I guess, you can do whatever you want with that...