Laminar Flow

 Could it be that he feels "owning" my heart from a distance is easier or more perfect than any reality?

Could it be that he believes real would make it ordinary, or even ruin it all together? 

I have a feeling that he has been afraid of this very leap since the moment he met me. 

But if that is so... 

That is no way to live! 

It's inhumane and downright cruel... 

See, I was born real

I am a real Woman and he is a real Man

And we deserve to be fully loved in every human way possible and cherished and fought for 

We deserve real, we deserve to fight for it even if we fail

We deserve the plunge 

Without it we are just cowards 

We came here to live 

We were made of mud and stars 

We already chose this exact kind of sacrifice by meeting here, in this plane of reality 

That leap is the only way to  actually live a human existence... 

In the arms of a man who does everything and anything to stay 

To protect my heart, also by his physical presence 

I am not an idea 

I am WOMAN

And deserve to be fully experienced and loved and protected and cherished as one.

In absolute, humane, flawed, glorious reality

I didn't come here to become an idea

I cannot afford for my life story to be just a novel 

It has to be real or I never lived 

I will always deserve that plunge from perfect to messy 

That specific sacrifice.

There is no other way to live... 

There is no other way to love... 

I am prepared for the jump... 

But will he ever do it...? 

Sadly... I don't think he loves me deep enough to 

I think he's more comfortable as he is 

He's more comfortable with me being a story he can maybe tell someday 

An unfulfilled potential

A forever from afar kind of love 

The inhumane kind 

The too cruel for anything real, kind...