Laminar Flow

 People from my bloodline

Fight their whole lives with their pasts 

They still try to find closure for their shortcomings and life stories 

Some wounds never close and the urge to self correct is within us 

Our Wounds... 

They can run deep 

Only by addressing them relentlessly, out in the open and absolute forgiveness can heal it all

I have realised that nomatter how much we want to just "move on with our lives" 

What is directly unadressed, can and will haunt us. 

Unless there is transparency, some kind of mutual understanding and total, radical forgiveness, these wounds can only be conceiled, festering like a desease waiting to manifest ... They can never, ever heal.

Because you can never ignore what is real. 

And a version of events can never replace the truth the nervous system and the body remember. 

We can lie to other people about how deeply wounded we are by other people's behaviors or by our own 

But never to the temple of our body

That is a part of an all seeing God

Some call it a heavy conscience

Nomatter what you call it

It is real. 

Jordan Peterson once said in an interview something along the lines of :

"In my line of work, I have never seen anyone ever, get away with anything at all. It never happens. We all pay in full for everything we did and didn't do. Nobody ever escapes that. "

So, never believe interactions are meaningless. They never are. Every single thing can and will become a piece in the colorful tapestry of our lives. Everything is energy. Everything changes our course and direction.Even slightly, because we are of this world. There is nothing meaningless enough to not move us at all. Everything matters.

So do your best to always make it a point to resolve, heal, give the closure, receive it... And I will do my best to do the same. 

Nothing else matters as much. 

I promise.

The most important thing in life is not to appear noble, but to be noble. 

It is not to believe in forgiveness, but to forgive and allow others to forgive you, back. 

It is not to preach about love, but to try to become it... 

And from there

Freedom will be just around the corner. 

But there can never be any kind of freedom without a savage acknowledgement of what has really been and the greatest leaps of faith in life :

 The surrender to - even the responsibility of - love.